almost 8 years of trading .. and sleep less nights of figuring it out.

Hi guys ,
My Journey started back in April 2017 , when I got job , got to know about stock markets that there exist such thing where in u just have to place buy sell orders and get rich scheme .

After learning basic of market like SnR , SnD , Fibonnaci etc… with some beginner luck made few bucks here and there . So this gave me a purpose to learn it properly and make millions and quit the job once and for all.

With this aim.. my Trading journey started..

My first course was of harmonic trading .. those guys sold dream that how easy is to catch bottom of market and make easy . I cant say much about market bottom but my bottom was ripped out of my market trying to apply those sucker concepts .

Then came various courses , mentors , YT videos , inspirations , downfalls , some good days and more downfalls.. and this cycle kept on repeating .

My portfolio was almost like that CAMPAIGN that wyckoff talked about .. that fuckin trading range .. 8 years of consolidation .. lost good money.

Then came the denial phase of not accepting that how can a person with good knowledge and good hold of technicals can lose to market. So started my journey towards trading Futures of NASDAQ thru topstep.. and the fuckery did not stopped .. was on losing streak .. then came some relief passed trading combines .. got xpress funded account 3 times only to blow them eventually .

Lost almost 1.5Lakhs ( Top step ) , 2.5Lakhs ( to some ponzi scheme of getting rich ) , 2-3 Lakhs in courses , and 3-4 Lakhs in markets .. till now have lost around 8-9 lakhs of rupees in this journey of 8 years..

But the mistakes , the denials , the psychology has not improved , everytime I blow account I started another one .. saying that I wont repeat same mistakes .. but again that cycle gets repeated.

I feel like drifting into void .

But anyways .. my Grit to achieve excellence is still there ..

I know I am too far.. but I’ll reach there .. eventually .

Wishing me a good luck..